Wow! Look how long it's been. I never thought I'd let this much time pass since I posted but being here at my own place, gives me hope that things can change and things will be good.
Looking at my community I can see that anything is possible. I have a place to call my own, yet it doesn't feel like it is. Perhaps it's because I haven't moved in yet, but the potential is still there.
The things that are facing me now aren't so bad but there is one thing I can't stop thinking about. My mother's surgery. I've known it's been coming but I know I won't be able to accept it until it comes and it scares me that I haven't come to terms with it.
I'm afraid of what it will mean. The what ifs have taken over and I am truly afraid. I've tried talking to my friends but it seems that they are disinterested in what I have to say.
My family is one of those that don't express their feelings which makes it even harder. I know my mom has her own concerns and it makes me sad that we don't share our own.
There are times that I wish I could take the whole world's pain and sorrow away. It would be a good sacrifice. One I could understand.
Yet, here I am. Sitting alone. Beneath the stars. The dawn about to break. A beautiful beginning with so much potential and hope. Perhaps I should be the one who believes even if I'm the only one.
Either way, I'll love my mother, shima', my true love of this world.
Looking at my community I can see that anything is possible. I have a place to call my own, yet it doesn't feel like it is. Perhaps it's because I haven't moved in yet, but the potential is still there.
The things that are facing me now aren't so bad but there is one thing I can't stop thinking about. My mother's surgery. I've known it's been coming but I know I won't be able to accept it until it comes and it scares me that I haven't come to terms with it.
I'm afraid of what it will mean. The what ifs have taken over and I am truly afraid. I've tried talking to my friends but it seems that they are disinterested in what I have to say.
My family is one of those that don't express their feelings which makes it even harder. I know my mom has her own concerns and it makes me sad that we don't share our own.
There are times that I wish I could take the whole world's pain and sorrow away. It would be a good sacrifice. One I could understand.
Yet, here I am. Sitting alone. Beneath the stars. The dawn about to break. A beautiful beginning with so much potential and hope. Perhaps I should be the one who believes even if I'm the only one.
Either way, I'll love my mother, shima', my true love of this world.
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